Life lesson

There’s a quote that I came across while I was at work a couple of days ago. It has been a very powerful advice that I felt from heaven. It almost feels like a warning. A warning that opened my eyes to a bigger perspective.

 As we started a new year, I felt the impression of what I needed to do to become better. I was at the urge of trying to stay above the water, but something heavy kept pulling me down. And I often would feel angry, jealous, mad, prideful, etc. I felt everything good was being pulled away. Months later, I started to recognize the things that I have been doing wrong and things I knew that I cant blame my human side forever.  I desperately wanted to get over what was boiling inside me and get over feeling so mad and jealous all the time. I had to stop feeling sorry for myself and start doing something about my life. Only I can change the outcome of every mistakes and success. I started working out, and started changing my diet. I then started to feel better about my life but that didn’t kept me from feeling jealous and mad all the time. Sure it covered the emotions temporarily. I guess its one of those things that wont heal if you just put a bandage over a deep wound. I started to rip the bandage and dig deep down and pulled out everything that could make me feel the way I feel.. I started to share my feelings to someone maybe a coworker… I cant remember who.. And after I shared all of what was in there.. Things were starting to look better. I guess. Maybe not exactly but it was somewhat better. After I said all these things… I said a prayer in my heart, asking Heavenly Father to please help me get over these emotions and help me not let it boil over and ruin good relationships that I interact with. After I said a prayer, a quote came through. I don’t know if I have it down correctly. But it says. “Comparisons crushes JOY” I kept repeating this line over and over again and tried to learn something from it. I slept on that quote and then I realize that was exactly what I was doing to make myself mad, angry, jealous, prideful etc. That was what kept me from moving forward. I was so busy looking at how green everyone’s grass is instead of being happy for them. Everyone grass will get green in their lifetime but in their own time. Something that made me think about this analogy was that even if their grass is greener than yours, if you look close enough… they are also battling their own struggles as well. And that maybe there’s a dry patch in their grass and you cant see it because you are a thousand miles away. But regardless how green it is, I don’t need to compare my grass to theirs. I don’t know exactly what is going on in everyone’s lives therefore I don’t need to be jealous of them and mad for their success. I need to be let it go and move on. It’s always those tough lessons that stick with you for a lifetime. I am grateful that I am daughter, a wife and a mother.