Am I the only one that is afraid of what
others might think about me? Oh, and what about my hair, my looks, my body, my
parenting skills, my dancing skills, Oh, the list can go on and on! But
seriously,Am I? I am even afraid of what you might think about my writing
skills, my sense of style, how my blog might look.. Yes! Your opinion matters
to me! When I was in the fourth grade, my self esteem went from I am going to
conquer the world to I think I am going to hide in my crab shell forever. And
it stayed that way for a very long time. Someone called me many different
names. And that insult followed me through the rest of my life. And it wasn't
just one person, it felt like I had a line... You know the kind where you would
stand in line to ride that famous big roller coaster at the theme park. It felt
like it never stopped coming. I became insecure of how I looked, or what the
other person is saying about me, or very shy and hoping that the words that
come out of my mouth were the right ones. And all those years of being so
insecure, has finally caught up to my life. I became depressed, mean, and self
conscious. I didn't like who I was becoming. I was always apologizing to
everyone I have ever wronged, or not making new friends because I was afraid of
what I was going to do next. I started thinking for a really long time, and
wondered what can I do to get myself out of my crab shell.. A crab can't live
in a small shell forever! As it grows, it has to come out to find a bigger
home. I have decided to get out of my shell and find who I really am, and find
the courage to be me and whoever I want to be.
